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Grapevine : January 2011
Having nine years' so- briety has brought me to a place of self-awareness. I've been regularly attending meetings for nine years, I have always had a spon- sor, I've sponsored many, and I con- sider myself a fairly healthy and spiri- tual person. e AA program has done wonders in my life. I read my daily read- ings, I talk in meet- ings and I've worked the Steps. I've done all the things that are suggested for emotional sobriety and have had some "life on life's terms" things happen to me in sobriety in various ways. I still stayed sober. Recently, it was brought to my atten- tion that there was a need for someone to chair some 4:30 P.M. meetings. Well, I haven't had a regu- lar service position since I first got sober Getting kinda cocky manifested into the true blessing that it always was. Even though there are many at that rehab who may never find their way to being truly happy, joyous and free as the result of the loving Fel- lowship and the healing principles of Twelve Step recovery, I was will- ing, just for today, to attempt to be an instrument of God's peace by get- ting out of myself and my own self- centered obsessions and planting the seed of hope in the hearts and minds of still-suffering alcoholics. My hair is well-dry now from my post-commitment bicycle ride in the rain, which was quite enjoyable, by the way, but that is not where the true blessing lies. It is not so sim- ple to put my finger on, though the blessings exist in abundance. It could be the fact that my slothful desire to be a slacker tonight was driven out of me in a moment of thought, in the words, "Do it" (I wish that this always worked for me). Or it could be the blessing that comes with the understanding that even though God may enable, empower and allow me to plant the seeds of hope, he is ul- timately in charge of the nurturing and growing of those seeds. Yes, those things are certainly contributors to the abundance of the gifts and blessings of sobriety that I received tonight as the result of simple service, but the one that will most likely remain in my memory for many years is when "Bob" shared with me after the meeting was over that he had been waiting 18 days for me to get there. I guess "Bob" read the confu- sion on my face, but he did not leave 54 January 2011