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Grapevine : February 2011
most when he died, because in my case he had to die in order for me to start growing up. I began frequenting local indi- gent detoxes. There, my perception of the world slowly changed. These peo- ple were helping me, and Lord knows, not for the money---there was none--- and not for any wisdom or great char- acter or pleasant attitude I had. I was a spoiled rotten homeless guy with a really bad attitude. I did not get sober and live hap- pily ever after. I had to go out and re- lapse and go to jail for several more years. The people in the detoxes kept taking me back and cleaning me up and feeding me; they gave me clothes to wear and rides to meetings. Slowly but surely I was forming my own iden- tity and my perception was changing. On Oct. 4, 2003, I was arrested---I pray for the last time. I still do not talk to my family. I have obtained a new family through work, meetings and sponsorship. I have a sponsor today whom I speak to almost every day. I am redoing the Steps with him and am currently on Step Eight. My life is still filled with challenges. The house that my wife and I bought five years ago is in fore- closure. I get scared at times until I remember how blessed I truly am. Everything is just kind of rolling off my back. I have bad moments; I do not have bad days. I suit up and show up and take the next indicated steps. I know very little, though my happiness is not gauged by money, cool cars or the like. What I really en- joy most is helping people. There is nothing sweeter than to see a young man or woman---or even an old man or old woman---say, "Wow, I think I can do this deal." I have learned not to get too excited, but I tell them, "As a matter of fact, I know you can, if you're ready to surrender and get into action." Kelly K. Newport Beach, Calif. 51