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Grapevine : March 2011
Grapevine 29 from the ground like mushrooms. A small river flowed into a fresh-water swimming pool. Magically, we had entered paradise! I have never forgotten the wonderful gi we were presented. Today, the topic of my noon meeting was "surrender." I initially wanted to share my ideas about the word, which comes from the French, "to turn oneself over to." ere was no necessarily unfavorable connotation to this, but sharing did not seem appropriate. e speaker mentioned Oklahoma in passing, and everything became clear. e Big Book, Steps, Traditions, meetings and commitments are all maps on how to find and reclaim ourselves and our lives. It may sometimes seem that they are not leading anywhere, but we trust our guides. If we do so, we will find a destina- tion that far exceeds any of our expectations. Not only does the shade and the cool water of the canyon calm us down and give us serenity, but the knowledge that they are there gives us the strength to get back in our cars and head down the road when we are ready to get on with our lives. As pointless as life can sometime seem, the knowledge of the canyon's existence---the fellowship and spirituality of AA---is always available to remind us of what is beautiful and worth pursuing. Frederick M. Princeton, N.J. answer I needed. I began attending meetings again and found a new sponsor who directed me to a women's group. ere I met "Alice" who was enlisted and being deployed to Iraq. e topic at this particular women's meeting was the ird Step. When it came time for me to share I said, "I'm about ready to throw in the towel. I can't get past Step ree and my life depends on it. Please help me." Alice shared next and these were her words: "First, ask God what his will for you is. God always wants the best for you, so this should help you. Pray and meditate during this process. If you still honestly, in your heart, do not know what God's will for you is, then you choose a path. No matter which path you choose it will be the right one, because God's will for you is that you learn and grow from your life." I experienced a spiritual awakening in that moment. I went up to Alice and shared how much comfort her words brought me. Today I am 32 and nine months sober, by the grace of God. I have a beautiful sponsor and sponsee who mean the world to me. I attend at least one meeting every day and I love life more than I ever could have imagined. I remind myself, when things are beyond my control, it is simply God reaching out to teach me and I need to be open to learn. Liz P. Tempe, Ariz. A er an agonizing month, in which I drank over 30 bottles of gin, I came back in---defeated.