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Grapevine : April 2011
ing the beauty that my Higher Power creates. I had forgotten. Today, as I look back over 27-- plus years of sobriety, I can simply thank Him for being wherever I am going before I even get there. I had to come to realize that if I just open my eyes and ears, I may hear and see what God wants me to. I believe He speaks to me in many ways. I just happened to get His latest message as the sunlight of the spirit, reflected in the magnificent foliage as the seasons change here in Pennsylvania. The les- son is, "Keep growing---I'm not fin- ished with you yet." When I share, sometimes I remind people that, "I'm not old enough to be as old as I am." I have alcoholism, not alcohol- WASm. My daily sobriety is contin- gent upon the maintenance of my spiritual condition. I must bring God's will into my life on a daily ba- sis and practice the principles of the Twelve Steps in my daily life. AA has no permanent home ad- dress. Wherever I go, I must find AA, because: "I am responsible. When anyone, anywhere reaches out for help, I want the hand of AA always to be there. And for that: I am respon- sible." It works and I'm in it for the long haul. Jeanne R. Monaca, Pa. into my pitiful cry for help. I remember nothing else that night. e next morn- ing, I awoke. Surprisingly, there were no empty bottles on the floor. I hadn't soiled myself and my stomach was not demanding dry heaves. e obsession to drink alcohol had le me and, to this day, has not returned. I've faced many obstacles since then and my emotional sobriety has regularly been imperfect. I've made many mistakes and behaved poorly to others. In my early, demented state of recovery I had thought that once I stopped drinking all my problems would end. It didn't occur to me that now, a er almost a lifetime of drinking alcohol, I'd have to face life without medicating. But I'm work- ing diligently to improve my character. I work daily on trying to reign in my impetuous temper, my obsession with reaction rather than reflection, and that silly ego that keeps rearing its ugly head. I'm grateful for AA's reference to progress rather than perfection. Despite my shortcomings, with the help of the AA program and my brothers in AA, improvements will continue to be made! Anonymous I had thought once I stopped drinking all my problems would end. aagrapevine.org 17