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Grapevine : April 2011
Iam part of a Big Book study that meets every Tuesday night. Each week, we come up with a new homework assign- ment. is week it was to write about our experiences in recovery, and mail it in to the Grapevine. So, here goes! My sobriety date is March 7, 2009, and I have never had it so good. I have been (involuntarily, of course) involved with AA since I was 18 years old. Mul- tiple DUIs kept me coming back, but I spent about six years in and out, abso- lutely dreading the two meetings a week I was required to attend. Needless to say, I never acquired any sobriety. But, what I did acquire, without my knowl- edge at the time, was the seed of what AA could do. I saw people staying sober, and not because a judge made them, ei- ther. ey were sober and happy, which I did not understand. In March, 2009, I had been bouncing along my bottom for a while, and I knew it, but I was too scared to ask anyone for help. My sisters had an inter- vention, and helped get me into another treatment center. SothereIwas... again, still skeptical, as I had slithered through treatment twice already. Yeah, I'd been around AA for about six years, Notes from an alkie going to work with such a hope- less person as myself. I was told to just"giveitatry,"soIdid.AsIsat in that first meeting, I noticed a few peculiar things. These people were giggling and joking, having a good time. I was confused, but cautiously intrigued. They welcomed me, even though they had no idea who I was. I sat, listened and cried with envy because I wasn't capable of laughing. That part of me had left long ago. At the end of the meeting, a seemingly friendly person ap- proached me. She hugged me, gave me a tissue, told me her name and asked if I would come back for "just one more meeting." Through my I attended my first AA meeting outside of detox, still feeling that black hole inside of me, that void of emptiness. I didn't know if AA was going to work with such a hopeless person as myself. 52 April 2011