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Grapevine : May 2011
standing in the end. i have to remember that my disease doesn’t want this. it wants to win. if it does, it will kill me. i came across this writing while i was cleaning up some files on my computer. it is now over three years later. i didn’t even recall writing it until i discovered it and have to believe that my higher Power wanted me to see it. it brought me right back to the begin- ning of my sobriety and my journey through aa. yes, the beginning is hard and frightening. i didn’t know who i was or, for that matter, even cared. i had some hope, but didn’t think it would last. i can truly say that my life today has surpassed any doubts i may have had. i still do what i learned early on in aa: i go to meetings regularly; i have a sponsor that i meet and talk with regular- ly; i work the twelve Steps; i talk to oth- ers in the program; i do service work; i pray and meditate; and, most important- ly, i don’t pick up a drink. today, i have sober choices, real relationships and true self-esteem. i have learned to love myself and others. i am grateful for what aa has given me. i am no longer fight- ing for my life, i am at peace with it. Teresa B. Charlotte, N.C. into my AA meeting with a whole dif- ferent outlook. I was still unsure that the program would work for me, but I knew I was hopeless over alcohol, and was willing to give it an honest try. The fear of having to wait years to regain my sanity like the others in the room terrified me, mainly because I didn’t think I had that long. I hung in there, got a sponsor and started working the Steps for all they were worth. I soaked up ev- erything I heard like a sponge. The program became a way of life, rather than a mission I had to accomplish. I found my Higher Power, faith, san- ity and serenity. I found peace like I’d never known before. As of December 7, 2010, I’ve been sober 142 days. It took me only 142 days to find the peace and seren- ity I’ve been looking for my whole life. Please understand, the program works differently for different people, but it does work and my experience so far has been that you don’t neces- sarily have to wait years and years to obtain what we have if you really want it and are willing to go to any lengths necessary to get it. So, before you give in to your fears and get overwhelmed by the length of time you think someone must be sober before he or she finds serenity and peace, I hope you will remember my story and keep coming back. It just might save your life.... It saved mine. Brooklyn W. Jacksonville, Fla. I am willing to do whatever it takes to win this battle and to help others. aagrapevine.org 53 GRAPE_50-53.indd 53 4/4/11 1:03 PM