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Grapevine : July 2011
MY momma al- ways used to say, "Don't ever think you're smarter than Alcohol." Guess what? She was right. I thought because I was successful, I didn't have a "real" problem. At 25, I was a pretty, married, emergency room nurse with two small children, a house, cars and other various toys. I was also drinking at 7 a.m. at a bar with my coworkers a er our graveyard shi . Yes, everybody was doing it, but they all went home to sleep. I went home and drank more. When beer made me too fat, I switched to vodka. When vodka got me too wasted, I went to whiskey. When whiskey made me too angry, I fig- ured that wine was far too sophisticated to produce any problems. Four bottles later, sophisticated is not how you would describe me. Hangovers, cheat- ing, lying, missing work, crash and its aftermath. A gentleman approached and asked if I had a Big Book. Before I could answer, he went in the building and came back with a book that he handed me, adding, "You're gonna need this." As I glanced through the Big Book, another person sitting at the picnic table announced that the AA meeting was about to start. I went through the open door and followed the people down a hall, to a room, and was offered a seat at one of the tables. I sat down, scared of what would come next. A leader started the meeting. Information was given, introductions were made and ev- eryone introduced themselves until, eventually, it was my turn. "My name is Sheila and I'm an alcoholic," I heard myself say. Admitting to being addicted to alcohol that day was the most important step in my new life of recovery. I attended several meetings weekly, learning of other meeting locations, including two within walk- ing distance from my home. I was getting a new circle of support. I was MOMMA SAID I am currently serving a life sentence. At a meeting, a man said he recognized me. He also said that he knew the man I had killed. 16 July 2011