by clicking the arrows at the side of the page, or by using the toolbar.
by clicking anywhere on the page.
by dragging the page around when zoomed in.
by clicking anywhere on the page when zoomed in.
web sites or send emails by clicking on hyperlinks.
Email this page to a friend
Search this issue
Index - jump to page or section
Archive - view past issues
Grapevine : September 2011
28 September 2011 talked about dealing with pain and su ering with God, and began reading aloud to my mom. I had such fear surrounding the news we'd just gotten, I could barely get the words out. I can't tell you how I did it; I just did my best. I read and read, looking up at my mom every now and then. Gradually, the pained emotions she seemed to be experienc- ing were subsiding. All of a sudden, she looked peace- ful. I'm not sure if this was because the words on the pages a ected her, be- cause she was surprised I was reading aloud, or because she was simply distracted from her situ- ation. Either way, it was working. is program taught me that lack of power was my dilemma, and I had been working on that lack of power problem from late October to this December day. Not once did I try to beagoodsonoragood brother. I worked on my lack of power. By doing this, I became a good son. A er three nights, they released my mom, but she was never the same. She lived the remainder of her life in bed, except for an occasional wheelchair ride to the living room or outside to get some fresh air. I wasn't working during this time, so I stayed with her during the day and tended to her needs. I continued reading to her in the months leading up to her passing. On March 30, 2008, my mom finally got to go home to heaven. A couple of weeks later, we found a letter she had written, thanking her family for be- ing a part of her life. Here is an excerpt: "Trey, my sweet Trey-b- baby, what can I say? Our lives have been somewhat turbulent at times, but I always knew you loved me and I hope you always know I loved you. e good times far outweigh the bad. You're on the right track now and I want you to stay there. I'll always be there for you, to listen and guide you. Ste e was always my rock to lean on and you were the net to catch me when I started to fall. You kept my life inter- esting. You made me feel needed and you made me feel loved. You reminded me how good God is at taking your troubles away when you need Him most. Because of that I know God will take care of you when I can't. ank you for all your love and, most of all, showing me the way to peace. I love you, son, always." I think about my mother and this experience o en, thanking God from the bottom of my heart for using me as a channel of his peace. Peace is still foreign to me. Before AA, I had never brought peace into any- one's life. In those last few months with my mother, Godusedmeasatoolto bring my mom peace. It was only when I got out of self that God could use me, teaching me God is love and love is selfless action. What a gi . I still use this experi- ence to help me through tough times, reminding myself that working the Steps is a living, ongoing process and I shouldn't quit, because the miracle might be just up ahead. Trey B. Macon, Ga.