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Grapevine : October 2011
searching for another job almost since the day I started, sending resumes off into that vast cyberspace wasteland--- without a single response. I had also gotten comfortable in my old job and hadn't kept my skills sharp or my knowledge current. Quite often, I struggled with seemingly sim- ple tasks that I saw others do with apparent ease. My character defects were reactivated and my negative self-talk became more audible. As this noise grew louder, it unlocked still other defects, until I became solely re- sponsible for my situation and for all of the negativity in my life. Finally, the night before my birthday, after another tough day at work, I collapsed, exhausted in the arms of my Higher Power. I asked him to please, please help me as I could go no further. That prayer was answered when I suddenly envisioned an old- timer who used to wear a baseball cap that said, "Relax. God's in Charge." A great peace came over me. I reflected on the times in my sobriety when seeming disaster was actually the hand of God at work in my life. I had suffered the pain of rejection from several women before I met my wife. We have been happily mar- ried for nearly 20 years. God gave us both exactly what we needed, exactly when we were ready. We had tried to date for nearly two years before we finally worked it out. It seemed we had a lot of growing to do before God put us together. When I was downsized, I quali- fied for a larger severance payout by four days, which meant a difference of a substantial amount of money. Also, I had been aware for quite some time that my old job supported an in- dustry that was in deep decline and unlikely to survive. I probably got out of there still young enough to adapt to new knowledge and skills, which I am learning, albeit at times painfully, in my new position. Also, the new job is local, so I can coach my son's little league team and attend my home group. My wife is a survivor of a seri- ous illness that kills or disables nearly 90% of those who experience it. She survived nearly unscathed. We beat long odds in adopting my son. The list just goes on and on and includes countless little "coincidences" that are really God working in my life. I had to examine the evidence a little closer. It is a relief to know that God has been and continues to be working in my life. I was given a birth- day gift in realizing that the work con- tinues. I may not be happy with a cur- rent situation, but I can accept it and understand I can live through these seasons with the faith and assurance that I have not been dumped by God. Truly, "This, too, shall pass." I don't have an itinerary from God showing me exactly what is going to happen next. So, I have to have faith---yet an- other gift. Happy birthday to me!D.C. Bethlehem, Pa. 50 October 2011